Uninspired

What do you do when you lose your passion for something? Is it a temporary thing? Or is it more permanent? When you wake up in the morning, excited only for the moment when you can come home and get back to bed, is this all you have to look forward to? I don't believe life is meant to be lived that way. 

For many years, after waking in the morning, I looked forward to the time that I could come home and hide away from the world. I didn't want to interact with anyone, and I sure didn't have the energy to try! Going anywhere and doing anything took so much mental energy that I would be exhausted at the end. But now, I am busier than I have ever been, and I still have energy to keep the day going. Then when I am ready to fall into bed, I am a good tired from the things I have accomplished that day. I am a good tired from ENJOYING my life. I am moving forward, changing and growing. 

Lately, my fires have burned down. I'm smoldering along, still getting things done, but the inspiration isn't in the forefront right now. So I have to stop and really think about what inspires and motivates me. The energy I have comes from my health and daily exercise. I am going through the motions, accomplishing things, but I'm not feeling the greatness like I was a few months ago. I'm not feeling discouraged or defeated. I'm not depressed or anxious. I'm not under a great amount of stress. Things are just fuzzy and uninspired. 

I have to get back my inspiration. I know what being uninspired and unmotivated can do. Thankfully, I am able to recognize the beginning of this path, and I know where it leads. It leads to depression, anxiety, fear, and anger. It leads to weakness, and self-doubt. It leads to the enemy's lies that tell me I am worthless. I recognize the warnings, and I can choose to break off into the unknown and keep moving forward, finding the little things that bring the excitement to the journey. And when I look back and see how far I have come, I can rejoice. 

I encourage you to find out what inspires you. Start finding the little things that you can look forward to. Sometimes all you can do is find one thing, and that is okay. Don't let the monotonous days of nothing turn into months and years. You have a LIFE to live. Enjoying your life helps to light the fires for others. You are not here to only exist. You are meant to LIVE. You have much to offer, and you are WORTH living. 

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