What Do We Expect?

Yesterday was a day of greatness and hope. Early in the morning, the Holy Spirit was nudging me get down on my knees. I'm not sure how long, but while the girls and the dog were sleeping, I was in my bedroom on my knees in the dark with my head bowed, praying circles. 

I've been reading a book, The Circle Maker by Mark Batterson. It talks about circling our biggest dreams and biggest fears in prayer, and not limiting God to our small box of human misunderstanding. God is the Creator, of course He doesn't work in our ways! He can do so much more than we could ever comprehend. I don't want to limit Him to what I think is possible. What I want to do is step out with complete trust that He has already answered my huge impossible-to-me prayers. If my prayers are things that I can do on my own, then how can I ever see how awesome God is? 

Yesterday morning I was on my knees circling one thing in prayer. Or rather, a person. A child that I love, not born yet, has already been classified by the doctors as one who is not compatible with life. I know that most people have difficulty hoping for more, but I have seen God work miracles in my life. I know some of what He is capable of. I have enough prayers to share. In all the biggest dreams that I have in my heart, that this beautiful baby is born whole and healed is the biggest and most important right now. I would say that I have just a couple more months until I see this miracle, but I don't want to step on God's toes. He might take longer than what I expect. So, until I see a miracle for this baby, I will circle her in prayer. God is the final authority on who or what is compatible with life.

After circling, the girls and I got ready for school. I had to work, and my work day was amazing! I had such incredible patience and amazing joy! The work I do is hard for me. Working with the public is not an easy job for me, especially when so many hurting people are walking around. My co-workers are some fantastic people. One of them brought me a treat. Then the bus dropped my girls off to me, and even though we had some difficulties, we were able to work through them. Then it was off to pick up the dog from daycare. 

There is a bit of a story behind this daycare. The woman who owns and runs this daycare is one of the most special and fantastic people I have in my life. She is constantly supporting our family, especially through Eliska's difficulties. She watches my dog for free while I work, and tells me that if I need to go overnight somewhere and can't take him that she will care for him. She has two dogs, and all three get along so well. I have been trying to think of ways to show her I appreciate all she has done. God sent that opportunity. She offered to pay me for taking care of her dogs while she is gone, but no way! What an honor to be able to do something for her! 

We are also taking care of a friend's cats while she is gone. When we went up there, she had three little Halloween goody bags with fun stuff inside. One for each of us. This friend's house is right near the entrance to a trail that leads to the small lake in the middle of the city. While we were waiting for the mail truck, we took the dog for a walk. The girls had so much fun, and I got some cardio workout in! It was a very blessed day, and it started with listening to the Holy Spirit! 

God also gave me this song below, for yesterday. Most people believe that God has redeemed us, but they don't really understand it fully. I can't even fully understand it either, but because He has never let me down, I am going to trust that what He says is truth. Its not always easy trusting, and hoping. When the world starts pressing in, pushing down on you, its hard not to give in. Our human bodies can't take that kind of pressure. But for those of us who have accepted God's gift, He is living inside, and He transforms our understanding if we let Him. "Greater is the one living inside of me, then he who is living in the world."